the day after.....

I am thankful today for today, thankful I am done working already, thankful I didn't have the money to even think about battling the friday crowds :) Life is throwing some major curve balls at me but I am handling them as they come and dealing with my feelings after the situation is over. If there is something I have been learning in a blended family its to leave your feelings out of it until the situation is resolved. The friends god has chosen to place in my life at this time make my life seem so simple, thanking god for showing me life isn't as major as I make it out to be. I tend to overannalize situations and it makes them way more messy than need be. Just leaving well enough alone and working on life with my kids and hubby. I love god and his ways, sometimes they just scare me into believing life is suppose to be different. I am happily married to the man of my dreams and have three beautiful children and wonderful family and friends surrounding me. Feeling blessed today. Trying to avoid thinking about the pain and my upcomming surgery and what might happen when i can't work. Praying :)

thankful Nov 19....

Today I am thankful for being alive, feeling emotions, and breathing deeply when i want to punch someone in the face. Wondering if this is something I should or shouldn't be thankful for? :) My son is gone for a week, please say a prayer that he stays safe. The situation with his bimbo is never safe but my hubby chose that one for him so its out of my control. I am also thankful that my hubby is rationalizing things out to the best of his ability and still loves me after I make him think and analyze things so deeply. I am also thankful that my MIL still has time to address our family issues when she is given such a heavy plate of her own. Thank you god for another day of ins and outs.

another "thankful" day in november....

today i am thankful for my children, no matter what happens there is always something i can pick out of the three of them that i taught them, that makes me a proud parent. considering they all three have very difficult other parents that have major affects on them at different times in their lives. bless their hearts for "dealing" with each situation however they can.

thankful november

Today is going to be better, I am thankful for my life. My children, my husband, my inlaws, and even my disfunctional immediate family. We all have issues and they are for god to judge. Letting go and letting god is one of the hardest things i think i have ever done besides raise children :) but to my suprise its going to be o.k. I am seriously considering calling off thanksgiving because we just can't afford the dinner, maybe take the kids to a free food hall and let them see just how thankful we should be for what we have. Just thoughts today, no actions. p.s. Thank you MIL for talking to hubby, he is a little better today. I love you. I love me too, bet noone would ever thunk that one to come out of my mouth. Thank god!!!!

Change......

Tonight is too tough to start blogging about.....Tomorrow is a new day, and in this new day I will now start blogging as my hobby, daily for ME. I am still going to excersize just maybe at a differant angle, I am going to take the time to do positive thoughts, negative and venting is nice, but who needs it. I have enough with my "blended family", bless there differant stages in life :) Besides.....think positive and it should be, right??? The love and get love back isn't really working with my angry feeling family. Maybe with the people around me, but I haven't been giving all the love I should to them because I am so consumed with trying to love my "blended family". So to copy my MIL, because she is honestly a great person and I love her values on life, I am going to have a thankful and positive rest of November, one month at a time...lol. P.S ... i really can't wait to meet my new nephew, at least my sister in law would appreciate someone wanting to love my nephew. Today I am blessed I have in laws that love more than my own family. This might be why I am such a needy lovey clingy person??? (due to my family and the respect that doesn't exist.) hmmm, thinking and gonna pray :)